Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Sorry for the delay...

I am truly a slacker as of late. But my mom would say "what do you mean 'as of late?'" Between all of the family sickness that has evidentally been trapped in our house for weeks, school work, work work, and Todd working a lot, I just really haven't been up to posting lately. For that, I apologize!

I didn't start this blog to get everyone hooked on reading it, and then pull the plug. So, I am back. I am also back to my normal (if you can call it that) state of mind from the earlier post. I did lose myself, but thank the Lord, I am back.

Just to give you a quick update on my precious baby boy, he is making huge strides with his speech delay. He basically repeats anything he feels like now, maybe not very clear, but I, being his mother, can understand him most of the time. His expressive language grows everyday, and for that, I have to PRAISE THE LORD!

Here is a small sample of the words he has recently uttered with that teeny, tiny, sweetest ever little voice:

School (we play school every or every other day for about 20 minutes)
Shhh!! (With the finger to the mouth)

I am sure there are more, but I wanted to give you a hint as to where we are!!

I will be back soon,

Friday, February 15, 2008

Total exhaustion...

No one ever told me that when you become an adult, as some point, you lose yourself, even if it is just for a little while. It is amazing how life can totally consume you, and you almost forget who you are. When I reach that point, like recently, I have to take a step beside myself and figure some things out. What needs to change here? How can I reprioritize and allow myself at least some down time?

(Disclaimer...this is a feel sorry for myself moment, venting time, self pitty party, call it what you will, but I need to get it out somehow. So, if you want to stop reading now, go ahead.)

I am so tired today I feel like I can barely hold my head up. I know everyone is busy these days, and I am not trying to say that I am busier than anyone else. I am not only physically exhausted, but mentally too! I work full time, which requires a lot of in-state travel, take on-line classes, teach some at church, have a wild baby boy, play host to Stephen's birth to three therapists and parents as teachers person, and Todd works a lot. I am in NO WAY, SHAPE OR FORM, complaining about ANY of these things, but I am just tired. I guess what I am saying is I have no time for myself. Even when I go to the bathroom, either Stephen or Luci (my dog) is with me.

People tell me they don't understand how I do it all, but I say that I have to. And I do. First, there is nothing on that list that I can give up, and, there is nothing on that list that I WANT to give up. I just need to come up with a plan to make things a little better. I need to take this to the Lord and allow Him to work it out for me. He can, and I know that!

For those of you who are still reading, I told you in my very first post that sometimes I would use this blog as a venting tool. Well, today I have. I hope you are not disappointed in me, but sometimes I just need to let it out.

Thanks for listening,
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